The story of my life?

I did not meet up with Miss Xaaya since my last post. Is She testing my loyalty or is this a situation that is all too familiar to me? I do not know but i will wait till Miss Xaaya returns and i hope i will find out then.
I do know however, that the past two months i was with Miss exactly four times and those times all were in the period from August 22nd till 28th. And since i am not allowed to go to the Bondage Ranch, i am getting pretty lonely in second life, thus prefering my first life. This cannot be right.