What do to?

It has been almost 8 weeks now since i saw Miss Xaaya the last time. I really do not know what to think, what to do. What does She want from me. What does She expect from me? Is She testing my loyalty? Does She even still want me? Do i still want Her?
I do want to wait for Her; want to talk to Her, but....
should i wait for as long as it takes or will i do something i have not done before: decide that i waited long enough and send Her an IM telling Her my disappointment and my sadness and inform Her about me considering myself a free slavegirl and just leave Her? After all, officially i still am unowned, since Miss Xaaya did not collar me yet.