I am leaving SL

I thank the very few people, that made it worth to be there. I am sorry your friendship wasn't enough to stay. I wish you all the best.

To the others that knew me i would say: i am stepping out! congrats!
Forgive me for being bitter since that is what i am. I will not wish you the same as you did to me; i do not want to be like you. Bye!

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Last night one of my best friends in SL told me (teasingly) that i was lazy not having posted for quite some time now.
She herself shows long non-posting periods in her blog though (sticks out her tongue); noooo that is not being bratty just setting the facts straight.

There are reasons i did not post; for starters i had and still have to face serious RL issues. And because of them i haven't been online very much and when i was, i mostly was on very briefly to answer  the very few IMs i get or pay my tier. So nothing to post about.

Some things did happen though and may be, just may be, i will post about some aspects of them in future blogs since in my perception they do represent some of the negative sides of peoples behavior in SL in general.

Anyway the upcoming weeks my sis and best friend Tasja will be on holidays and with Amanda leaving on monday only to return midst of December ........

Two years have gone by .....

There are no words to describe the emptiness .... 

The end of an era .....

This afternoon my landlady said "the end of an era". She was right. Almost two years ago now my wife, Annemie, died and since that day a lot has changed; unfortunately not for the better. Things haven't gone the way She wished them to go and having to leave Ozland is putting a final end to the Annemarie Niekerk era.

My tier ends the last day of this month and i had planned to take away all my stuff from my three islands on that day; the upcoming week is a pretty busy one in RL though, being in its own way the end of an era (my friends know what that means). Since i didn't want to take my stuff into my inventory just like that, but in an orderly way i did so today, leaving my Ozland sim empty and deserted; the way i felt overlooking the place when the work was done.

The big Life @ Niekerk island with the smaller one in the background

The Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds in Ozland East

I created two groups in the past, one for the Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds for everyone who wanted to memorize her and "Life @ Niekerk", named this way by Annemie (being a tribute to this Grande Dame). Since both groups have become superfluous i sent out groupnotes letting the members know they were to be ejected so the groups will vanish in a few days.

The end of an era .....

Another step into the future?

Some two weeks ago i told you about the major changes my homeland Ozland will be going through. Since that last groupnote announcing the "earthquake" no more offical announcements have been sent out.

Of course i had contact with my landlady, although very little; she gave me the impression she already had accepted me leaving Ozland, which in fact was far from sure. I did explore other options and i did find an attractive one: my own homestead, that i could buy for zero lindens with about the same tier as i pay in Ozland.
Not bad at all, but my first and desired option was to stay in Ozland; in Ozland North to be precise. So i waited for a new proposal, but time passed and i did not hear anything. On the other hand, the number of available free sims decreased rapidly causing me running out of time. So, one day when almost all free sims were sold i felt forced to make a decission and since i had not heard from my landlady i went ahead and bought my own sim.

My new sim, called Anneland

A day or two later my landlady made me a new offer, telling me it was more or less depending on me if she would keep 3 or 4 full sims in Ozland. Unfortunately it did not show how much she wanted me to stay in Ozland. She apparently had not been able to do something with my earlier remarks. I told her again i wanted to live in Ozland North for the obvious reasons.
As i was disappointed about her new proposal i told her i had bought my own place already, but that i might buy a small plot in future in Ozland North if something would come available.
Secretly i hoped she would cook up some new proposal meeting my needs. I still love living in Ozland and i can move back easily, since i did not pay one single L$ for my land.
To make a long story not longer then it is already: i have my own sim and the way it looks now i will be leaving Ozland.
And Ozland...? i don't know since we did not get any new official announcements. Will it be 3 or 4 full sims? What day will the transformation take place? How will the transformation look like? Which location will which current sim get?

The new Ozland of four
As far as has been told me (in case of 4 full sims) the current NE will become the new North sim, SW will become West, Main will become South or East and the current four homesteads are being traded in for the fourth full sim (S or E). In the middle of this cross there will be an open sim providing the residents with a "Central Park".

The new Ozland of three

When there will be only three full sims, Ozland will be shaped like a standing triangle. In that case the current NE sim will become NW, the current main and SW sim stay where they are. The space of the current West sim (which will become empty, since the four homesteads will disappear) will be filled up with a open sim, again providing a Central Park.

All being said we will be leaving Ozland in about a week with sadness in our hearts, forced by circumstances. Leaving the land where my beloved wife Annemarie Niekerk was so happy untill her last moments, where our little girl was born.
So, in a way, i do hope Ozland will exist of only three sims so no one else will be living on Her grounds; leaving Annemaries Ozland hurts .....

Earthquake in Ozland

Last night i received a groupnote about major changes in my homeland, Ozland.
For you who don't know Ozland let me say a few words to picture it. Ozland is a group of 7 sims, three full sims and four homestead sims. Two full sims were added last, first South-West  and later North-East.
The sims North, West, South and East are homesteads with the main sim (also a full sim) in the centre.
Ozland is known for its homesteads …. several lovely islands on each sim with lots of water, very green, open spaces and peaceful. Understandably the full sims have a different atmosphere: on the same 65.536 sqm there are 15.000 prims to be divided amongst residents. They obviously do cost more, so there is more land to be sold. They are less green, less open spaced, more crowded, still with quite some water though.
Because of the mixture and location of the 7 sims Ozland is a great place to live.

Ozland as it was untill yesterday; the yellow spots are land for sale

The land- and housingmarket did not only collapse in RL, but also in SL. Besides that Linden appears to act as competition to their own residents. Not only to landowners, who's business it is to rent out land, but also to residents who create content, more specifically houses.
In short.. here is a real economic crisis in SL. You can hear shopowners complain about decreased turnovers, you can look at landprices, even with the biggest landowning companies; you can "buy" land for free, so at least they do not have to pay the tier themselves.

Ozland has been effected by this as well. Many residents left for various reasons. This made it necessary now to downsize Ozland. The four homestead sims will be traded in for one full sim, which leaves Ozland as a group of four full sims. They will be relocated to N, W, S and E with in their midst an open sim which offers a green landscape. This way each residential sim has maximum free space around. It seems a good Plan B (Plan A of course was finding new residents), but without any doubt the wellknown and widely appreciated Ozland atmosphere will disappear.

Since i own (all together) a complete homestead my land is going to disappear, which raises the question "what do i do now?". I don't need to leave, i don't want to leave, i do want to stay and support my landlady. On the other hand i need to be fair to myself too. I can accept some disadvantage that comes with staying if that helps Ozland, but i cannot close my eyes for the advantages of owning my own sim.

What is it going to be?
For now all options are open and i am talking to my landlady about my options in Ozland. That is where my focus lies at the moment. If that does not lead to an acceptable solution i will have to weigh my other options. I am not in a hurry, but since the new Ozland should be established by the end of May we all will know soon where we stand. I'll keep you all posted….

East of Ozland

Several weeks ago i told you that the Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds were relocated to one of my islands in Ozland North. This left my island in Ozland East empty and open for new ideas. 
I talked about it with my Owner and W/we came up with a few concepts; two of which remained, an asian/ japanese or a roman atmosphere. I visited shops and sims that offered both themes and in the end W/we decided the asian theme offered the best opportunities, also given the limited size of the island. So i started working and shopping and, and, and.....
After some time of working it now looks like this. May be the nicest is, that everything on the sim is made by me, except for a very few things like the birds, trees and the sampan.

Besides all this i have started creating tattoos/ brandings. I have made tattoos for myself and it is nice to do, so i looked if i could do more. Of course there are lots of tattoo-creators in SL, but in most cases you can only buy what they offer in their vendors.
The tattoos i will put up in a vendor can be bought of course, but serve mainly as example. I want to make customized tattoos or brandings. Customized could mean a tattoo that is in my vendor but on a different bodypart or a different colour or may be modified to ones liking; it also could mean someone has an idea (picture) for a tattoo or branding and have me do that.
At the moment i am working hard to get the example-pictures ready to show in my little shop in the skyvillage in Ozland.

Just being a gentle, kind, respectful ….

The other day, being in some D/s place, perving profiles, i read the profile of a Domme. She had put in some wisdom of (Second) Life in the pickssection of Her profile. They sounded very familiar and triggered a memory of a recent encounter i had myself. I'd like to share that with you. I promise, this will not be the start of a "rantingtour" on SL; it's just that this struck me.

Some time ago i met this Lady, a lesbian Mistress. She seemed nice enough and since i am quite some time on my own in SL it was appealing to spend time with Her. So i did look Her up, in public places of course, and we had a few nice chats.
Soon however she started coming on to me, something i am not into. I am an owned girl and those activities belong exclusively to Mistress. Since i am well educated i pointed this out in a subtle, polite way (not at all being bratty like Mija!).
May be i was too subtle, making myself not clear enough. But i doubt that, since we talked about it and She invited me to explain my views and feelings on this matter. She "understood", She even complimented me on my views; but, somehow, that did not stop Her coming on to me over and over again. May be She figured, that if She would press long enough, hard enough i would give in. Which, of course, i did not.
I told Her "no" over and over again until one morning when, on logging in, i checked my friendslist for online friends and found She had dissolved our "friendship".
Without a word ….
Because She could not get into my panties ….

This is how Her profile starts:  Just being a gentle, kind, respectful ….

The AN Memorial Grounds

About a week ago i told you about relocating the Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds from Ozland East to Ozland North. A few days back Llola finished the job and it really is looking like i imagined it would. Thank you so much Llola!

The Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds: Ozland East or Ozland North?

I plan to hang on to my island in Ozland East for now, but at some point in the future i will return it to Llola so she can make someone else happy with that lovely place.

A first step into the future

About a month ago i said that the new Second Life had to wait due to my RL. Now i can tell you, that i have set a first step into that new future.
I am not sure, that this is happening now despite of my RL or because of it. No, i am not going to tell you what is going on RL; i only told my friends. By that i do not mean the people that are in my friendslist as i have come to regard that list more and more as a contactlist rather then a list of friends. If it really was a list of friends mine would be almost empty, which is not so. I do expect it to grow smaller though somewhere in the future.

My Second Life the last (almost) two years: sans famille (Hector Malot)

Anyway, the first step ... Some time, like two years, ago i wrote how i bought an island for my beloved wife Annemie in Ozland East. Together we worked it and decorated it in such a way that it breathes Her presence. I think She and i did a good job since this really was the one place She felt at home. Not on the lighthouse-island, not on the garden-island in Ozland North, nor anywhere else in the Second Life grid: the Annemarie Niekerk Memorial Grounds is what She really loved, where She really wanted to be.

At some point the idea arose to move the Memorial Grounds to Ozland North, to the location of the lighthouse. I had figured out, that it should be possible to transfer the Memorial Grounds from Ozland East to North; so a few days ago when talking to the Queen of Ozland i asked her if my idea could be realized. She told me "yes" and we discussed how to proceed. 
I want it to be the exact same way as it is now in East to preserve the atmosphere. This means, that the North-island has to be re-shaped.
I had to empty the island and create some (prim)room to make it possible for the Memorial Grounds to be transferred. In order to be able to do the modifications Llola has reclaimed the part of my land that was the northern island. As you can see in the picture below she has began the work and i hope the new Memorial Grounds will be ready real soon.

Megaprims under water indicating the new shape of the island

Happy Valentines Day to my true friends

Not much of a post today; just a thank you to the few people that were there for me in the past and i know will be there for me in the future.
Thank you guys! Happy Valentines Day!!

You know who You are *smiles*

You know too *grins*

The new future has to wait ...

In my last post i talked about travelling towards a new future, leaving the past behind. At least the greater part of it and more specifically the hurting parts, the things that apparently are not worth (enough) to keep.
Whether this moving on would be metaphorically or actually moving to another place in the SL grid was, and still is, open.
Something has to change, no doubt about that. I do want to regain some SL-happiness. I think i am entitled to. However RL has taken over control causing delay in our departure towards this new Second Life. We will go on our way, but i am not sure when it will happen.